Saturday, June 27, 2009

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

Magic Wands

I lost my Magic Wand a long long time ago.. when I was a very young girl.. thing is now that I think about it I am not sure I ever had one.. I think it was my mother that had the magic wand. She always seems to be able to make things better. I asked her today about that magic wand I wanted to borrow it for my own daughter.. but its funny she said she lost her's long ago too. But if she lost it then how come it always seems like she has one? And and where is mine so I can wipe away the pain for my daughter???? Then I got to thinking as usual these days The magic of Mommies.. do I have that magic? Can I help my little one feel better? Please God help me help her ... help me find that lost magic wand. Its funny whenever I mention my wand everyone knows exactly what I am talking about.. as if they have seen it too... yet no one seems to have any idea where theirs or anyone else's is. I am rambling tonight .. thoughts are scrambled I remember the pain she is going through so well, that unbearable tormented nothing in the world will ever be right again pain. Know that pain? The only thing I know to tell her, the only way I know to help is to tell her it will get better , it will , time will fade this type of pain, it will get better, it is like an open wound, it will heal but leave a scar that with time will fade to just a shimmer of its original self. I wanted to take her and shield her from anything harmful, never let a single thing touch her.... but I couldn't do that.... if I had my sweet little rose bud would never have blossomed into the beautiful being she is. I hope she knows how proud of her I am.. I am very proud of both my wonderfull girls... grown women now though... that still need mommie once in awhile... don't I know that feeling... ohh see I have learned something today... My children still need me.. and I still need my mommie. Take care all .... give your mother, daughter , sister.. hubby... son .. daddy.... a hug today, let them know you still need them. Good night...sweet dreams

Children and mothers never truly part -
Bound in the beating of each
other's heart.
- Charlotte Gray

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Learned things

Ohh myyy what did I learn about myself today? First off I HATE it when to many things are going on at once. Somebody bugging you about where something is when THEY are the one that lost it, somebody on the cell phone saying they are gonna be late, and someone on hold wanting to know how things were today, and at the SAME time some one on the home phone calling wanting some paper sent to them RIGHT THIS minute! I was ready to pull my hair out! So now what do I do so this doesn't happen again? Get rid of the phones? Love that idea... but don't think the rest of the household would. Tell the person bugging me to shut up! Can't do that wouldn't be nice. Lots of can'ts there huh? Sooo what do I do? And dont you dare tell me thats just life! Hmmmm that is life though isn't it... and as I sit here and think about this I realize I should stop complaining and be gratefull. Gratefull for what you might ask? 1. Gratefull that I have some one here with me and I am not alone, even though we might bicker now and then, if we didn't things we be mighty boring around here. 2. Gratefull that someone is coming over at all and they care about me enough to call and say they are going to be late! 3. Very gratefull that someone cares enough to call and ask how I am feeling! What a wonderfull thing that is. 4. Gratefull that that I have a phone so this person who was nice enough to call and tell me this paper needed to be in or I was out some money!

WOW, guess it really does matter HOW you look at things huh? Have a good one! Hope you learned something about you today too!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Stuff and Things

Wow talk about a t.v. show that was hard to handle and emotionally
draining ! I just watched the first eps. of Obsessed its about OCD. It
was a story about a woman and a man that both have this disorder. Anyway
I don't want to go over the whole dang show.. but have you ever watched a
movie and gotten so envolved with the ppl. that when you leave the show
your drained? Totally tired? Shouldn't have watched that show. Hit to dang close to home I guess. Ohh well on to more stuff and things learned

Lets see what did I learn about me today? Number one I don't like tons of ppl and loud noises. Funny thing considering I used to be a preschool teacher huh? I wonder why that has changed so. I also have learned another thing a good thing actually. I have a wonderfull family! I need to remember that when the days get hard and all start to blend into one another. I guess it sorta goes with the saying "don't forget to count your blessings" Its funny when you really sit down with a pencil and paper and start counting every single one. You know like Number 1. I am alive 2. I have two wonderfull daughters 3. Everyone is basiclly healthy. 4. I can count lol 5. I have a place to live 6. I have food to eat 7 I have electricity 8. I have a computer 9. I have the internet. 10. I can type and tons more.. see what I mean? You really don't see how much you have till you write them all down! Ok I am off my soapbox. I do wonder though how any of you feel about what I am typing or for that matter is anyone really reading any of this? Drop me a note plz and at least say Hi or something so I know I am not the only one reading my what seem to have become "mini novels" . LOL Hope you are all having a nic evening couting your blessings!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Well today starts out with me not getting up till 11 .. I missed my nice quiet morning dang it! You see around here if I don't get up early in the morning , then I can forget my alone time. I like being alone in the morning, just me and my dogs and the quiet , ohhh the quiet. No TV that's the best. I can think. You know what I mean? Really really think . Only thing is once in awhile this thinking causes some strange side effects. I start wondering if I am the only person that really thinks like this? I am sure I am not. So why can I only hear my thoughts? See through my eyes? Only feel what I touch? It's weird it kinda starts a circle that goes around and around in my head. Then I start feeling really lonely and scared. Weird I know. But most mornings I just get to sit quietly for an hour or so and drink my coffee, watch a quick craft show or Joyce Myers Show. I don't usually read in the mornings because it makes me sleepy and I am likely to fall back to sleep and waste a perfectly good morning!

Well I am off to explore some blogs. Maybe I can find something that will inspire me to get back to my art. HMMM you never know right?

Monday, April 20, 2009

Who is Susie?

I am sure you have read many blogs where people have no idea how to describe
who they are. So I guess this will be just one more. I wanted to say hello and
introduce myself like normal people would do. But heck I might as well admit it now.
One thing I do know about myself is that I don't fit into what most people call "The Norm"
But then again what DO most people call normal? I have always been told I am
weird, different, dance to the beat of my own drum, sing my own tune, that type of
thing. It's not that I wear wild crazy clothes that stand out from the rest of the crowd, although I would love to. It's not that my hair is green, but blue would be nice,or maybe pink. It's not that I color outside the lines, well not unless I am in the mood to. I am not loud or obnoxious, but I can sure belt out a good song. I am not abnormally short or tall,but good things do come in small packages.I don't tell people I see little green men from another planet,but it would sure be fun to meet some! So what makes me feel so different? What makes me weird? Good question, maybe all of you can help me figure it out.